Awake My Spirit: June 2013

I had worked so hard on planning the wedding - a "DIY " wedding - I made the table runners, the centerpieces, hanging decorations- i made votives and vases and all kinds of glassware to look like mercury glass - I bought more candles than anyone could know what to do with - as well as too many napkins, and extra "just in case" items. I stressed over the color of the napkins for a few days - beceause they didnt 'exactly match' I stressed the last few days before the wedding because of the chance of rain - both my rehearsal dress and wedding dress got too big for me - (i lost quite a bit of weight because of stress - i was hardly eating-) i wasnt getting enough sleep - i would stay up late working on projects /ideas - waking up early continuing and then going to work.
my body was handling it well . i didnt hink anything was wrong.

the wedding was beautiful. better than what I had imagined. everything looked gorgeous. I was so thankful i had hired a wedding coordinator to handle the stresses that I could not take care of when i was trying to gt ready for the wedding... like oh - there was a thunderstorm and everything was getting wet- including the dance floor that i had rented. apparently there were other things that 'happened' while i was inside getting ready - and didnt know a thing. which was great. (i had time to focus on getting ready - destressing and just prepping myself for a wonderful evening)

my dresses were ready the day before the wedding - which was a relief.

we had a blast- it was a small wedding- only 60 people- it was perfect. I was able to visit with everyon for just a little bit - everyone had a good time visiting and enjoying the weather- it cleared off just in the nick of time for photos and for guests to begin arriving - to the point where we all needed sunglasses- basically!!! it completely cleared off after dark and a big full moon arose from behind the trees. Everyone danced and danced-
one more stress arose when we were about to head out - Steve didnt know where his keys were -- so we had to have a few extra songs played while steve looked for his keys --- all the while they were in his car - we had a sparkler exit that was sooo much fun to see - and it was just incredible. it was a wonderful evening.

Steve and I stayed in downtown at a very nice hotel for our wedding night it was wonderful. we woke up the next morning to have breakfast with family - and we were purly exhausted. we wound up going back to our hotel and just relaxing for a few hours before heading out. I wanted to sleep but my body wouldnt let me. after saying goodbye to family - we headed home where we just relaxed at home. that night i began to have a scratchy throat -- but i took some medicine and went to bed.
the next morning i woke up early and my throat hurt so much. and it did so for a few days. Steve took care of me- I had to take a few sick days from work - and i even went to the dr - who wasnt sure what it was - she gave me some antibiotics- well i went home that day - and wound up sleeping for a very long time, and then got up, and naped the next. After it all - i figured out that all the stress that i had - really had built up over time - and my body did not know how to handle it -so when wedding was done - and stress was lifting - my body freaked out... ( i think ) and so i needed some sleep- my appetite came back and i've felt fine since.

between the time of the wedding and honeymoon (a week and a half between i pretty much just rested to make sure not to over do it to get worse - because at this point i did have a cold...)

we left for our honeymoon to costa rica - which we spent 9 days filled with adventure and a little bit of relaxing by the pools and beach.
we had a wonderful time, and already decided to go back in a few years.

for the past week and a half (or so) we've been getting in a routine (or trying to ) and trying to get wedding stuff sold and out of the house- and trying to get my things organized.